reflections

Some of the feelings/experiences I’m describing in this blog post most likely apply to a lot of people reading this. Uni (while I love it) is an intense, stressful place to go to school at times. I wanted to write this blog post to be honest about how I have struggled, and how it’s okay to ask for help or not do everything right. The perfectionist in me often tries to hide the times when I’m struggling. Not only do I like to do everything well, I like to seem like I’m also succeeding without much effort (yes I know this isn’t a good mindset to be in.) This put tons of pressure on me, and made me feel kind of isolated at times. However, this year I’ve started to change my mindset. First semester senior year has been hard for me so far. On top of the pretty substantial amounts of homework we’re assigned in our classes, there’s also the ever looming college application deadlines to meet. Not only is it a ton of essays to write, each essay seems like it could make or break my fut...

A happy, post-bath Polar We got my dog Polar the weekend before finals my subbie year. My brother and stepdad were both out of town that weekend, and my mom was busy taking care of my little brother, so for the first 3 days he stayed with us I spent basically all day and night with him. We had a lot of bonding time that first weekend and I fell in love with his goofy personality and calm demeanor. Polar is not your average dog. First of all, he weighs at least 130 pounds which is a lot bigger than the average retriever. He has a huge head and body, but proportionally really short legs. I’ve had people tell me that he looks like a sheep before. He also hates going outside, going on walks, or getting in the car. He, however, loves exploring our yard and carrying around whole trees that we’ve cut down, or trying to take logs out of the burning fire pit (he’s not the smartest dog). He's always super excited to take a bath. Polar also loves his big sister, Lily. Lily was m...